It’s been about two months of entrepreneurship and boy, what a journey it has been!
I used to work in corporate as a senior HR professional for more than 10 years before free-diving into this mad and crazy journey of entrepreneurship.
Being in corporate had its perks, such as structure and financial stability. What you need to do and how much you are paid are pretty much spelled out. In contrast, entrepreneurship is like a cowboy town where you figure things out as you go, things move 3x quicker and it takes a while to come up with a steady cashflow (which is still a work in progress for me)
How this dream came about
Since young, I have always wanted to have my own business; it was born from a space of wanting to be a free bird (NOBODY SHALL CONTROL ME!) and it feels surreal to now be living what once felt like a distant dream.
While I have now realised that freedom is not as straightforward, being on this journey definitely has its perks, such as the flexibility to do what you want when you want. Some people may find the need for self-discipline suffocating and the fluidity of it all paralysing; I understand and have felt those fears for so long which was probably why it took me so long to actually have the courage to make this decision.
Where I am now: Entrepreneurship
Currently, I am a licensed therapist, management psychologist and a corporate trainer/speaker.
I have a few providers that I work with as an independent contractor and I have just set up and am running my own business (with a very good friend of mine).
The main driving factor: Motherhood
When I was in corporate, there was always a mixed, in-between feeling when I became a mother.
It started off with me not wanting to work when my daughter was born to reality eventually seeping in (girl, you have to work! How are the bills going to get paid?). I was completing my first Masters at the time and after re-entering the workforce when she was about 6 months old, there were many years where I felt such strong mum guilt.
Is it right for me to be working? I should be spending more time with her?
Will she understand and forgive me later? Would she think I am a bad mother?
Why do things (and life) have to be so difficult? Some people have it so much easier…
Naturally, not everything is figured out yet one of the biggest gifts of entrepreneurship has been this very flexibility, for me to spend time with my husband and daughter.
It gives me so much joy to do the simple things like cook dinner for her, converse with her and be there for her different school events. Soon, she will be more focused on her friends and the outside world…so you could say I am trying to save myself from overwhelming feelings when empty nest syndrome happens in the future. (Yes, I know I am dramatic, but I am still a planner haha!)
Two months in, my relationship with her has deepened beyond what I could have imagined. Life is much busier (and at times have been anxiety provoking) with having to dig deeper and push myself beyond my comfort zone. I have learned and am still learning so much from life.
Moving forward: Where are we going?
This blog is where I want to share past and present (professional and personal) experiences in hopes that it would help give some insights, knowledge, and perhaps even some motivation to people who may be looking for some inspiration, laughs, or maybe even some added “oomph” in their lives.
I hope you’ll stick around and enjoy this journey with me.